Yesterday my boss and I were starting to look at places to stay when we head to San Diego, CA in May and this got me thinking. I am gearing up to put my mom body in a bikini this summer - now I haven't been in a bikini since BEFORE Elle was born - say 2006ish. I started to think about how after the kids I have been scared to death to put my body on display for the public... Now don't get me wrong - I love to take pics of my outfits, dumb faces, workout crap, etc... but parading around the pool/beach with my skin all exposed has me FREAKED out. Since the ML challenge is OVER - I decided to start one of my own. I have to take a break from the weekly weigh in stress or I would of joined the lovely Courtney's Diet Bet challenge. It starts TODAY.
So today I join the amazing Kassie (Southern Girl Gets Fit) challenge called #operationredbikini - hahaha. My bikini most likely will be BLACK - if you know me, you know I am all about the black clothes, shoes, undergarments;), accessories.... I am thinking a little number like this.... (I really like that fringe stuff)
|Check it out HERE|
Jamaica 2005 - yes I was STILL wearing a bikini... This was BEFORE kids.
Here is me right before I popped with Elle (2007ish) - this was not even a full month before I had her. OMG!!! Yes. Yes. Yes. that face is MINE.... Now I am rocking the "preggo swimwear". Sweet water retention - oh yeah:)
So after I had Elle I was back down to a nice size around the following summer, however I still couldn't bring myself to get back into to a bikini - so I basically wore this swimsuit hanging off me - WTH was I thinking? I don't even have a picture of 2008-2009 in a suit, because honestly I don't even think I got in the water. Ugh...
So July 2010 I had the Wes man and not even a full month later, I decided it would be a GOOD idea to have a pool party for Elle with ALL her classmates and their parents. Um.... WTH AGAIN? I stuck my "less than one month post-partum" body in this suit AGAIN in front of all these people and acted like "I don't care - I am a mom of 2 who is still all cracked out on hormones". I look so pleased in this picture.
Fast-forward to last year San Diego trip. I decided I needed a new suit. You can read about my adventure HERE. I just went back and re-read this post, and for real WHY did I buy this suit - a tankini with all that jazz on front - NOT CUTE. Oh well I guess at that point it made me feel good about myself ~ today it does not. Here is me last year in my suit in San Diego.
Alrighty then, we are back to NOW. I am DONE with the tankini. I know I am 32 and a mom of 2, but DANG IT I only have a few good years left before I am FORCED to wear these types of suits. I WANT to wear a bikini again and I don't have stretch marks on my stomach from the kids - so why am I so afraid? Ugh.. I need to suck it up continue planking my abs off and just DO IT. Confidence is KEY, right?
Happy Wednesday My Friends
Do you rock a bikini? Water retention for you? Swimsuit ideas for me?